On September 20, 2014, I had the privilege of attending the Kundalini Yoga Fall Festival at Yoga at the Ashram in Millis, MA. It was a picture perfect fall day full of amazing teachers and Yogis coming together to practice these sacred teachings brought to the West by Yogi Bhajan in the late 1960's. The vibrations were high as we synchronized our breath and movements, and chanted and meditated together in this sacred setting. Beyond that, it was a profound opportunity for me to reflect how far I have come in my healing journey. Sometimes the changes are happening gradually and we can tell things are shifting, but don't realize how much and how far we have actually come.
Two years ago I found myself at the lowest point of my life. I was newly divorced, moved away from my beloved home on the big Island of Hawaii and left all of my friends, even my cats! I had abandoned my yoga practice and had been wallowing in self pity and depression, falling deeper and deeper into this pit of despair and losing hope of ever climbing back out. I was actually getting comfortable in my own misery and felt like I had had my chance at being happy and blew it.
I found my way to a Kundalini Yoga Class with Mary Mullin (the owner of Village Yoga in Marstons Mills, MA) and as soon as we tuned in the tears started to flow and I knew in my heart that this practice would be the key to finding my way out of this dark place. I went to class every week and was feeling better each time, and Mary invited me to ride up to the Fall Festival with her. I accepted and was a bit nervous when we got there, as she was the only person I knew. Once the day started, the energy shifted and I was embraced with the love of this community, and found the courage to let go and look inside myself to find the love and light that was still in there. It was on that day that I met Siri Ram Khalsa and Ajeet Kaur who graciously invited me to come to KYB and try a free class. I also took a class with Mahan Rishi Singh Khalsa, which was a huge catalyst in my healing journey!
As we drove home from that blessed day I knew that it was time to finally fulfill my dream of becoming a Kundalini Yoga Teacher. I made the commitment and dove in head first, and it was the best thing I have ever done in my life. I was able to heal and let go, and connect with my true soul identity. I graduated from the Teacher Training Program at Kundalini Yoga Boston in October of 2013, and Siri Bani and Siri Ram gave me the opportunity to dive in and start teaching right away. I was terrified, but I did it anyways. I then had the opportunity to live and work at Yoga at the Ashram, and once again was embraced by the community, and deepened my practice even more.
As the cycles of life continue to unfold, I am now living with my dear friend, and working and teaching at KYB. Which brings me back to the beginning of this story. While I was at the KYB table at the Fall Festival this year, I realized how far I have come on this long and short journey! I've had my head down and have been swimming furiously, as if being chased by sharks, and there was no direction to move but forward. On that day, I finally lifted my head from the water and as I looked around I saw the opposite shore from which I started, and I never could have imagined I would be where I am now. I knew so many people and was bathed with smiles and hugs and love from all directions. My cheeks hurt from smiling so much!
I am part of this dynamic and loving community of elevated souls, and together we are shining our lights brightly to light the way for others. I can see clearly now that it was the combination of both the daily practice of Kundalini Yoga and Meditation, the incredible supportive and FUN community, and the unconditional love and support of my family that made it possible to be where I am today. I am overflowing with gratitude and am even more committed to keep up and deliver these sacred teachings, and create a welcoming atmosphere to embrace all who find their way to join us in our community. If you considering taking teacher training, I highly encourage it. It CHANGED my life! And, who knows where this journey will take YOU!